I will be a hummingbird, God!

A friend and former co-worker of mine read my blog about how God had called me to go to Africa, and it reminded her of this song, "I Refuse." She is a missionary. A full-time medical worker who uses much of her paid personal time off to help children in Haiti. She goes more than once a year. I admire her, among so many others. 


Not everyone can go, it's true. But as I followed through with obedience on this call in my life right now, I was reminded by a speaker at a conference that the body of Christ is composed of many parts. I can be his eyes, but thanks to many financial supporters of my trip, I have feet to get me there. And with prayer support, I have hands. I may be physically going alone, but I'm accomplishing nothing alone. I initially tried to say NO to this trip because I didn't have the funds. That's not what God wanted. He pursued until I said yes, still without the finances. And then they came. I must humble myself to be reminded it's not about me; it's simply me letting God use me to accomplish his will in a much bigger story. He pulled at my heartstrings and showed me the cost of saying No. This week, I will be a hummingbird. Consider this video and the song lyrics to "I Refuse." 

I Refuse lyrics
Songwriters: Benjamin Glover;Joshua David Wilson

Sometimes I
I just want to close my eyes
And act like everyone's alright
When I know they're not

This world needs God
But it's easier to stand and watch
I could say a prayer and just move on
Like nothing's wrong

But I refuse
'Cause I don't want to live like I don't care
I don't want to say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse

To sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse

I can hear the least of these
Crying out so desperately
And I know we are the hands and feet
Of You, oh God

So, if You say move
It's time for me to follow through
And do what I was made to do
Show them who You are

'Cause I don't want to live like I don't care
I don't want to say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse

To sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse

To stand and watch the weary and lost
Cry out for help
I refuse to turn my back
And try and act like all is well

I refuse to stay unchanged
To wait another day, to die to myself
I refuse to make one more excuse

'Cause I don't want to live like I don't care
I don't want to say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse

To sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse

I refuse
I refuse